WRIGHT, Luke
Ex
We don’t touch each other any more
twelve years in a double bed
down to business-like deals
we can’t bring ourselves to shake on,
not even an
x
at the end
of a text. I’m not saying
that I want to. I just wonder
where we went. But today
you sent a photo of our son.
It stopped me as it flashed
across my palm. We were there.
In his face. In each other’s arms.
Your Old Photos (2)
You are showing me your strata, the women
that you were: young and pink-cheeked
on a Croatian beach; oioi-ing at the lens
in noughties Brixton. South London’s grumpiest
barmaid, the bruised TA, sozzled sixteen,
caked in Suffolk mud. They lie
compressed, preserved beneath the cliffs
of you. And I am on the shingle far below,
my head tipped back, gazing at the shading.
Now All That Shined Is Shit
Some felon’s sunk my sovereign sun inside his cloudy keks
and given me the slip. Today is doctor’s waiting rooms
and dog shit on the dance floor. Today my heartache clings
to me like burs, and everyone’s an anti-vaxxer, a queue of cars
behind a tractor. O, today I’m thatch, and Twitter is a tinderbox;
the slightest thing might set me off and I could take you all
down with me hissing. I’m arguing about Brexit on Reddit
and the lines I bellowed beaming from my handlebars just
yesterday are Brasso on my tongue. It isn’t that it’s raining yet,
it’s knowing rain will come.
Watch
Like my dad, my Christmas job, it seems
is balling wrapping paper into bags.
You tear through plastic junk you’ll soon forget
until one more, held back to last: a watch.
We sit together, watching seconds tick.
Wow, Dad, you say. It’s going really fast.
O England heal my hackneyed heart.
O England heal my hackneyed heart.
It’s shot with guilt and all those nights.
I’ve shared it far too often, England;
bled it almost dry for eager eyes;
traded it for other hearts
that turned to gristle in my grasp.
Nothing stirs this heart these days;
the party tricks have left it sick.
England heal my hackneyed heart.
O England heal my hackneyed heart.
Show me clumps of pastille homes on hills,
a couple holding hands in Hayle
and chalk-stone words of love in Dorset fields.
Give me roads the motor clings to,
herons over tidal mud
and skinny kids on wild swims —
that Constable-bucolic thing.
England heal my hackneyed heart.
O England heal my hackneyed heart.
Wash it in the North Sea foam,
wrap it up in honey dawn,
make poultices from April dusk
and chicken soup from sleepy days
until it leaps and bangs its cage;
until it thumps me with its thud
and gives me all the grief it should.
England heal my hackneyed heart.